First off, I'd like to say thanks to everyone that gave a f%*k. It meant alot to me. Especially those of you that have never laid eyes on me. THANKS.
I have been alot CRAZY PARANOID, alot of BETRAYED, and most of all alot BLUE.
I even tried to drink my troubles away and ya'll, ...it's a bad time when you are too Dam BLUE for BOOZE. I didn't even have the appetite for it.
I remembered a conversation I had with a fellow dj diva, Ce-Ce. She's one of those people that always seems to have it together. She's always positive and always encouraging positivity. A while back when I felt this way, I told her how bummed out I was. She listened to my troubles and dismissed them (i thought) by saying,..."yeah,...yeah,(nodding her head) you are have troubles with your faith in God."
cut to me with the most confused face you would ever see, saying,..."No Ce-Ce! You aren't listening to me! "
She said, "I heard you. You are just having faith issues with God."
I admit, I started to get a little pissed. Just as I was about to say,...you know what? you have totally misunderstood me and everything i told you.... (eurika!) suddenly,...it dawned on me,...if you believe in God, there should be no fear of the unknown or stress because you are supposed to have FAITH that GOD takes care of his children! With that realization in mind, I had to say THANK YOU SO MUCH to Ce-Ce. I know that FEAR, WORRY, PARANOIA, JEALOUSY, DECEPTION & SECRECY, ANGER, STRESS, HATERS, AND ALL ALIKE.... ARE ALL OF THE DEVIL!
It's hard to deal with that when you are one that tries to be good to everyone even when you don't want to. Especially in a world, and industry filled with lies, egos and deceit. It's easy to get caugt up and consumed. Just being reminded that GOD LOVES! It all helps to carry me though. Everytime I get upset I have to think back on that day with Ce-Ce. I don't even think she realizes what she did for me that day. But I gotta say THANKS CE-CE!
THANKS AGAIN, cyber brothers and sisters.
and you know I have to give thanks to MY FATHER, Our Father,...everyday. Thank you GOD!