blogs...if I wasn't yapping about a mama quote, I was depressed because I miss her so much.
So yesterday, after reading the gorgeous and crazy funky divas' blog...I was a little down. She wants to be a mom so bad it hurts. I thought about her all day. I kept thinking of how bad it hurts that I don't have my mom with me. I thought about my sister going through her pregnancy without the aid of my mom. I thought about how much stress that it's putting on me....I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT KIDS/PREGNANCY/WHAT TO DO/YADA YADA YADA! I feel as if I am doing a disservice to my sister. I don't want her to feel alone but really....I know nothing. I purchased what I thought was a funky little bassinet for her & the baby. It had handles, so I thought "portable bassinet"....WAY COOL, RIGHT? RIGHT!!
So, I was all excited and gave it to my sister. It even had a matching diaper bag. My sister tried hard not to look disappointed (to my surprise), she said...."Uh, this isn't a portable bassinet!" I was like,..."Yes it is....it is wicker and it has handles, it's cool." My sister said,"Yeah, it's cute but it's still NOT a bassinet. It's a baby basket with handles." Then she started to read the instructions which stated something about "it NOT being a BED and that babies could not be left in it unattended." I WAS BLOWN!
If only my mom were here. Life isn't fair. A crappy dad (whom I love to death ANYWAY), and a perfect mother that had to leave this world prematurely. I'm kinda pissed actually. She deserves to be here and We (me and sis) deserve to have her in our lives right now.
I find it amazing to meet people who are so fortunate, they still have grandparents. All I have is my sister. Me and my sister are all that represents her on this earth. Yeah, there are still the clothes, the clutch bags, the wide brimmed hats, the high heeled shoe collection, jewelry and laced gloves. My mom was LADY in every sense of the word.
It bothers me when people take their moms for granted or mistreat and disrespect them. I have this friend that gets into it with her mom all the time. She says her mom is overbearing.
DUHH!! That's part of the job, I thought.
She says that she hates discussing things with me pertaining to her mom because I ALWAYS take the side of her mom.
DUHH!! MOMS ALWAYS RIGHT! (at least most of the time)
I just feel that moms are prescious jewels that need/should to be protected. They sacrafice much too much for us.
MAMA...MOMS OUT THERE.....I LOVE YOU! I could never be you. So,...I will just HONOR YOU!
PS. BIG UPS TO X, FOR GIVING YOUR BROTHER A BEAT DOWN IN HONOR OF YOUR MOM. YOU GO GIRL!