WHY? THE WAKE UP CALL!

LIL KIM,.... I FEEL SO BAD FOR HER. APPARENTLY, SHE HAS ISSUES.....WITH HER SELF IMAGE, HER FRIENDS, YOU NAME IT. AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT THOUGHT SHE WAS BEAUTIFUL BEFORE ALL THE PLASTIC SURGERY? WHY DO WE DO THIS TO OURSELVES ANYWAY? AREN'T WE SUPPOSED TO BE HAPPY WITH THE THINGS GOD GAVE US? (I KNOW, THAT'S ANOTHER STORY)

THEN, BELIEVING THE HYPE, BELIEVING IN JIVE ASS WANNA BE GANGSTAS....STANDING FOR "FAM!"(WHO APPARENTLY RODE YOUR COAT-TAIL ALONG WITH BIGGIE, AND MOOCHED OFF OF YOU BOTH) WHERE DID IT GET YOU? F*CKED!!! AND NOT IN THE CONTROLLING WAY YOU LIKE IT ON WAX BUT IN THE MOST FOUL WAY....THROUGH BETRAYAL. WHEN PUSH COMES TO SHOVE, MOST LOOK OUT FOR SELF. WILL YOU FROM NOW ON? WHAT WILL YOU LEARN FROM THIS LIFE LESSON? MUTHA F*CKAS AIN'T SH*T!? PLASTIC PARTS, FAKE EYES, BOOBS AND BLONDE HAIR WON'T SAVE YOU BECAUSE UNDER IT ALL, YOU'RE STILL BLACK. WHERE WERE PUFF, PAMELA LEE, THE JUNIOR MAFIA AND ALL THE OTHERS YOU LOVE TO ASSOCIATE WITH? DO YOU THINK YOU WILL COME OUT RICHER BECAUSE OF IT ALL LIKE MARTHA? THIS IS A WAKE UP CALL. I KNOW PEOPLE WHO ARE DOWN FOR THEIR GANGS, SORORITES & FRATERNITIES, ETC. LIKE THEY KNOW WITHOUT A DOUBT THEIR BROTHEREN WOULD NEVER TURN ON THEM, BUT WHAT DO YOU REALLY KNOW?

MY BEST FRIEND OF 8YRS, LETS CALL HER BECKY, HASN'T REALLY BEEN SPEAKING TO ME. I DON'T KNOW WHAT I HAVE DONE. I TRIED TO TALK TO HER ABOUT IT AND SHE SAYS THAT THERE IS NOTHING WRONG. SHE AVOIDS ME, SHE WON'T ANSWER MY CALLS AND WHEN SHE DOES, SHE JUST MAKES LIKE SHE'S SO BUSY. I WOULD BELIEVE THAT IF I DIDN'T KNOW HER SO WELL. IT'S ALL OUT OF HER CHARACTER. I ASKED A MUTUAL FRIEND ABOUT IT AND HE SAYS,...AS IF I AM BEING COMPLETELY SELFISH AND SELF-CENTERED......

HAVE YOU EVER STOPPED TO THINK ABOUT WHAT SHE IS GOING THROUGH? MAYBE YOU REMIND HER OF EVERYTHING SHE DOESN'T HAVE AND SHE DOESN'T NEED THAT.

SO, I'M LIKE "WHAT"?

HE SAYS WELL, "THINK ABOUT HER DAUGHTER (FORMERLY A DRUG ADDICT ALONG WITH HER CRACK HEAD BOYFRIEND, WHO IS NOW SPENDING A YEAR IN JAIL FOR HIS USAGE) JUST HAD A BABY WHO IS EXTREMELY UNHEALTHY AND HAS BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL, IN AND OUT OF SURGERIES SINCE HIS BIRTH 3 MONTHS AGO. BECKY QUIT HER JOB FOR ANOTHER IN WHICH LOTS WAS OFFERED AND NOTHING MANIFESTED. SHE BUSTED HER ASS AND THEY REFUSED TO PAY HER BY CLAIMING THEY WERE GOING OUT OF BUSINESS. HER HUSBAND'S CONTROLLING AND ABUSIVE AND HER ENTIRE FAMILY DEPENDS ON HER.........YOU, (MEANING ME) TO HER, HAVE EVERYTHING. YOUR NEICE IS BIG STRONG AND HEALTHY AND YOU LOVE YOUR JOB. YOU HAVE NO CONTROLLING RELATIONSHIPS AND YOU DON'T HAVE TO BE EVERYTHING TO EVERYONE. YOU HAVE THE PERROGATIVE TO BE COMPLETELY SELFISH."

I'D NEVER THOUGHT OF THINGS THAT WAY BUT STILL, THAT'S NO REASON TO BE PISSED AT ME. YOU SEE, BECKY HAS GOD ISSUES AND I KNOW.....LIKE DARK CLOULDS CLEARING IN THE SKY THAT GOD CAN CHANGE THINGS. IF ONLY SHE'D TRY GOD,...EVERYTHING WOULD MIRACULOUSLY CHANGE FOR THE BETTER. IT'S NOT MY FAULT THESE THINGS ARE HAPPENING TO HER AND IT'S NOT FAIR THAT SHE HOLDS MY BLESSINGS AGAINST ME. AM I SUPPOSED TO BE ASHAMED OR FEEL BAD ABOUT THE WAY GOD HAS BLESSED ME TO KEEP FROM HURTING PEOPLES FEELINGS?

LIKE LIL' KIM, I'VE LEARNED THAT PEOPLE CAN TURN ON YOU FOR NO REASON AT ALL (NO LIGITIMATE REASON ANYWAY). WHAT'S IMPORTANT IS HOW YOU HANDLE THE SITUATION? DO YOU ACCEPT, EMBRACE THE REJECTION?BETRAYAL (IN KIMS CASE) AND TREAT PEOPLE ACCORDINGLY (DISCONNECT OR CUT THEIR ASSES OFF) OR DO YOU RESIST, CONTINUE TO ASK AND BEG WHAT YOU DID WRONG, APOLOGIZE, BEG FOR FORGIVENESS AND TRY TO FIX THINGS? WHAT DO YOU THINK?

IN MY SITUATION, I THINK IT'S SOME DUMB ISH TO GET PISSED OFF ABOUT. THAT'S SOME HATER ISH. BUT IT'S GOOD TO KNOW BECAUSE,....UNLIKE KIM, I AM CHOOSING TO DISCONNECT BEFORE I GET BURNED.

MAGIC 97'S BOOGIE NIGHTS BALL

MAGIC 97'S BOOGIE NIGHTS BALL 2005

this guy reminds me of that beastie boys sabbotage video

and pic 2 is my boss and his awesome sig other

the cutest couple and....check out the soultrain line....gone wrong

my crew

it was packed and hot

me....totally feelin' it.....and the funkiest mullet

some of my friends get really affectionate when they are on the sauce

and others just wanna par-tay

for real,....no one had a sell on afro wigs

MOST OF U KNOW HOW I LOVE TO PARTY BUT THE NEWBIES DON'T. SO CHECK IT. MY STATION HAD IT'S FIRST PARTY. IT WAS A 70'S BASH THAT WE NAMED THE BOOGIE NIGHTS BALL. IT WAS BEAUTIFUL....CHOCOLATE, VANILLA, YOUNG AND OLD...IT WAS LIKE STUDIO 54 ROSE FOR ONE NIGHT IS THIS SMALL METROPOLIS. NO FIGHTS, NO FROWNS,...JUST PEOPLE GETTING F*ED-UP AND HAVIN' A BLAST. GOD I LOVE CLEAR CHANNEL. THIS IS THE BEST COMPANY I HAVE EVER WORKED FOR. I WENT THROUGH SO MANY CRAPPY JOBS. I WAS LOYAL TO SO MANY EMPLOYERS THAT NEVER GAVE A "F" ABOUT ME. MY NEW BOSS,....HE IS TRUELY AMAZING. (I KNOW, IT'S WEIRD) I DON'T HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM OR ANYTHING....I'M JUST SO OVERWHELMED. THE OTHER PROGRAM DIRECTORS FOR THE OTHER STATIONS ARE SO SUPPORTIVE OF ME. I'M GETTING USED TO IT AT THE SAME TIME....STILL IN SHOCK.

OKAY, SORRY...I TOTALLY HAVE A.D.D. I CAN GO OFF A SUBJECT IN A NEW YORK MILLA-SECOND. ANYWAZ, THESE ARE JUST SOME OF THE PICS FROM THE BASH. THERE IS THIS ONE OF ME THAT I SO WANT TO POST, I DON'T REMEMBER TAKING IT BUT IF CB SAW IT....I'D HAVE SOME SPLAININ' TO DO...AND I GOT NOTHING. OH WELL.......

THE NEICE

I WASN'T GONNA DO THIS BUT......IT WAS REQUESTED.

FIRST OFF.....I HAVE NO CHILDREN, NOR DO I WANT ANY. PEOPLE LIKE ME NORMALLY DON'T REALLY CARE ABOUT HEARING ABOUT OTHER FOLKS KIDS EITHER. PARENTS ARE SO UNDERSTANDABLY PROUD OF THEIR KIDS AND THAT'S AWESOME! USUALLY, WHEN SOMEONE ASKS ME TO LOOK AT BABY PIC OR COME TO A BABY'S BDAY PARTY, I'M THE ONE THAT WILL SAY,...."OH, I'LL LOOK AT THE PHOTOS LATER" OR "CAN I JUST SEND A GIFT?" I MEAN, I AM A SINGLETON, THAT'S NOT MY THING. I NEVER BABY-SAT. JUST WASN'T INTO IT. SO, WHEN I SAY THESE THINGS TO SOME OF MY FRIENDS, THEY GET THE IDEA THAT I HATE KIDS. THIS IS RETARDED. I JUST WASN'T INTERESTED IN THEIR KIDS, I WISHED THE BEST FOR THEM, JUST WASN'T PERSONALLY INTERESTED.

WELL NOW, HERE COMES "THE NEICE." I LOVE HER TO PIECES. NOTHING HAS CHANGED, I'M STILL NOT ALL THAT INTERESTED IN OTHER FOLKS KIDS BUT AT LEAST NOW, I WILL LOOK AT PHOTOS........ONLY SO I CAN PULL OUT MINE OF THE NEICE.

I DON'T WANT TO BE ONE OF THOSE PEOPLE THAT ANNOYED ME, ALWAYS BRAGGING ABOUT THE KIDS. BUT THEN, COOL ASS LUKE HAD TO ASK ABOUT "THE NEICE" AND.......

BAM!!

SHE'S A HEARTBREAKER ALREADY. THEY GROW UP SO FAST. THROUGH HER, I GET THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS. I LOVE ON HER THEN I GIVE HER BACK. I MAKE HER LAUGH, WE PLAY AND I SHOP,....THEN I GIVE HER BACK. SHE CRAPS, SLOBBERS, HAS THE RUNNY NOSE, OR CRIES....I GIVE HER BACK. BEING AN AUNT IS THE BEST!!!

I WENT HOME TO THE ATL THIS WEEKEND TO SEE LIL SIS, THE NEICE AND BRO LAW AND THE NEICE HAS HER FIRST COLD. I SHOWERED HER WITH BABY DIVA GIFTS AND PLAYED WITH HER FOR A WHILE THEN SHE GOT A LITTLE CRANKY. THE MEDICINE DIDN'T HELP HER SLEEP. SHE KEPT HER MOM AND DAD UP TIL 5AM,....IT'S SAD TO SAY....AUNTIE, SLEPT HARD! NEVER HEARD A THING. I WAS AWAKE, ALERT AND PERKY THE NEXT MORNING.....JUST IN TIME TO PLAY WITH A HAPPY BABY THAT FINALLY GOT A NIGHTS REST...UNLIKE HER PARENTS. HEY, THAT'S WHAT PARENTS ARE FOR, TEEHEE.

SHE'S 6MTHS OLD ALREADY AND LOOKS LIKE SHES A YEAR. WE CALL HER BAM-BAM BECAUSE SHE'S BIG, HEALTHY AND STRONG AS ALL GET OUT.

THANKS FOR ASKING ABOUT HER LUKE. SORRY I HAD TO GO ALL PROUD AUNT ON YA.

HAT'S OFF TO KANYE!! & HARRY CONNICK!!

I KNOW MANY OF YOU CAN'T STAND HIM BUT THIS BROTHA IS ALRIGHT WITH ME. AMIDST A SEA OF BLACK MILLIONAIRES....HE'S THE ONLY ONE THAT WASN'T AFRAID TO SAY WHAT MOST BLACKS HAVE BEEN SAYING.

ON CAMERA, NO LESS......http://www.bet.com/Music/kanye+west+goes+off.htm?wbc_purpose=Basic&WBCMODE=PresentationUnpublished

KANYE, YOU WILL FOREVER HAVE A FAN IN ME.


HARRY CONNICK JR. (I'VE CRUSHED ON YOU SINCE THE BEGINNING), HAS BEEN SUCH A SUPERHERO THROUGH THIS. WHEN THE MARSALIS BROS (AS MUCH AS I LOVE THEM) WOULDN'T GO IN,....YOU WERE LIKE,..."F-IT, THAT'S MY HOME, THOSE ARE MY HOMIES AND THEY'VE BEEN GOOD TO ME....I'M GOING IN!" IF HARRY HADN'T BROUGHT THE CNN CAMERAS IN,....THE WORLD WOULDN'T HAVE KNOWN. THEY WOULD HAVE JUST CONTINUED TO BELIEVE IN FOX NEWS' OVER EMPHASIZING OF THE WHOLE "LOOTING THING!" THANKS HARRY!!!

EVEN THOUGH ALOT OF PEOPLE SAY YOU SUCK AND I THINK, AFTER THE FACT,...YOU PUNKED OUT A BIT,.....MAYOR NAGIN, THANKS FOR CUSSIN' FOLKS OUT ON WWL-AM AND GIVING PROPS WHERE THEY DESERVE.

WHY IS IT THAT SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAS TO HAPPEN FOR PEOPLE TO SEE JUST HOW CORRUPT THIS COUNTRY IS? I LOVE LIVING IN THE FREE WORLD FOR ALL YOU (RIGHT WING NUTS OUT THERE) BUT THERE ARE SOME SHADY MUTHAS IN OFFICE. YOU KNOW WHO I MEAN.......

W

NEW ORLEANS HEARTBREAK

i have so much work to do. so much to get done before the holiday. i have been glued to the tv and internet, watching footage of all the goings on in New Orleans. i have been fighting back tears. this is a place i have never visited. i got my degree in music. my music professors were black so instead of classical, they would always school us on our rich heritage and the part that showcased jazz, it's birth and growth. i learned about jelly roll morton & scott joplin. i learned about ragtime and other early forms of jazz as we know it. it all started in New Orleans. i felt obligated to see this beautiful historic place. i wanted to see funeral processions and taste some cajun cuisine. now, it's gone.

what really hurts is to see so many of GOD's kids, our people,...in so much pain. i am doing all that i can do, along with my station and company to make some sort of difference. i still feel helpless. where are the fucking superheroes when you need them?

then, i see more footage of looting. this lady i work with (just married a lawyer who purchased her a jaguar) said, "oh jazz, isn't it just horrible?" so i said (thinking of all the people that lost EVERYTHING!), "it breaks my heart, i wouldn't know what to do or where to go" She says, "No Jazz, I think it's a shame that those people are looting like that!"

******I needed a moment to get my thoughts together *********
I realize that I must explain this with sesitivity and then I say,....

"Okay so, imagine losing EVERYTHING!!! YOU HAVE NOTHING!!! ONLY THE CLOTHES ON YOUR BACK, NO BATH, NO ATM CARD, NO ID, NO PHONE, KIDS CRYING, NO NOTHING! YOU HAVE NOTHING! YOU CAN'T EVEN GO TO A FRIENDS HOUSE BECAUSE NOTHINGS THERE. YOU CAN'T GO TO THE BANK, EVEN IF YOU HAD MONEY IN IT BECAUSE....THERE IS NOTHING THERE!!! THE WORLD AS YOU KNOW IT DOES NOT EXIST. DEAD BODIES ARE FLOATING BY, PEOPLE SITTING ON ROOF TOPS. YOU MEAN TO TELL ME YOU WOULDN'T LOSE IT! PEOPLE ARE NOW IN SURVIVAL MODE. YOU DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO TO SURVIVE. PUT YOURSELF IN SOMEONE ELSES SHOES. THERE IS NO PLAN B FOR SHIT LIKE THIS. THE VERY PEOPLE THAT ARE THERE TO HELP (LIKE POLICE) HAVE GIVEN UP, THE MAYOR HAS EVEN ESCAPED THE CITY. OUR JIVE ASS PRESIDENT THAT YOUR PUNK ASS PUT IN OFFICE ASSURES THE AMERICAN PEOPLE THAT HELP IS ON THE WAY. WHEN WE ALL KNOW THAT IT TOOK THE MILITARY FAR LESS TIME TO INVADE IRAQ AND DROP FOOD THAN IT'S TAKING TO HELP A SMALL CITY IN LOUISIANA TO RECEIVE ASSISTANCE. THINK ABOUT THE SHIT YOU SAY. IT'S SAD THAT THINGS HAVE COME TO THIS BUT HONESTLY, WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU WOULD DO IF YOU SAW NO WAY OUT? "

look at this footage

she said, "anyway, i just think it's a shame."

the injustice of it all, pisses me off.....check out diva's blog entry

IT'S AMAZING TO ME HOW SOME PEOPLE CAN JUST DISCONNECT. THIS ONE RACEST LADY SAID THAT THE PEOPLE IN NEW ORLEANS SHOULD BE LEFT THERE. AS IF THEY ARE JUST ANIMALS AND DON'T DESERVE TO BE TREATED LIKE HUMAN BEINGS. IT ENRAGES ME.....AND BUSH SUCKS!